Posted by: Soph on: July 7, 2009
So I had a joint 17th birthday party last weekend. Rajiv’s birthday was a couple of days before mine, and he can’t have a party at his house cause he has a nine month old baby brother, and we kinda have mutual friends, so we decided to have a uberly awesome joint party x)
Invited about 40 people, I think most of them turned up, plus a couple of others that we didn’t invite, but that was okay x) I was stressing heaps about the party. cause it was the first party ever I was throwing, but a couple of days before the actual party, I just stopped stressing. Just went meh, whatever. Lets just go with flow (Y).
So here are the photos! In no particular order. Theres a whole album on facebook, and loads more photos on Rajiv’s camera but I don’t think hes uploaded them.

Vicky dearest!

Georgie dearest!

Bestest photo of the night I reckon. Love it how we’re all arranged like that. And I love these boys to bits. Anti clockwise, starting from the top: Corey, Brandon, Andre, Matt and me.

Only thought of taking a group photo when nearly everyone’s left. L to R, we’re not exactly in rows, but I’ll go top row first, then middle, etc etc. Starting with Caitlin, Geo, Amelia, Vicky, Rajiv, Brandon, Jenna, Me, Matt. Next row starting with Amy, Pris, SJ, Troy, Andre, Zach and Dhivyan. Then Corey laying down at the front.

During the cake cutting

People ’socializing’, I guess. L to R: SJ, Mark, Chris, Matt, Zach, Troy, Andre, not sure who that is next to him, Pris and Jeremy there in the corner.

Mark and Matt, two of the funniest guys I’ve ever met.

Nessa and May, THANKS SO MUCH FOR COMING YOU TWO! And sorry I didn’t get to talk with you guys much ): Hope you guys had an alright time ><

Love these two. Brandon and Andre.

Yaz and pris (L).

Matt, Brandon and Andre.

Lul, Zach. Don’t know how I got this photo.

Troy, Brandon, Zach and Blake.

Rajiv and his birthday present. Its a vibrating thing that you’re meant to strap around your penis before sex or something. Pretty funny actually.

Sometims, I don’t know why we’re ‘friends’. We don’t get along too well tbh.

Luff her the most.

Girlies, Pris, Yaz, Tam and I.

Clockwise from Andre (blue shirt), SJ, Dhivyan, Brandon, Pris, back of Yaz’s head and back of Tam’s head.

Matt, Brandon, seriously no idea who that guy is, and Mark.

May and Nessa, they were watching Masterchef, lol.

Amy!
So yepp, check out facebook for the rest of the photos.
We had about 60$ worth of KFC, and heaps of other junk food. And absolutely no alcohol, which is probably why some of the guys left early. Mark, Matt and Brandon and stuff started eating stuff out of my fridge and pantry, pretty funny lol. Saw Brandon drinking milk, and Matt munching on an apple so I was like wtf?
I think the girls danced for most of the night, and the guys just talked. It was good fun. I know it was boring for some people, people who were used to wild parties with alcohol and people passing out on their front lawns. But my parents wouldn’t have allowed that anyway, so we had a good clean party.
Hope Rajiv had a good time cause it was his 17th too
OH, gifts. Got plenty of awesome ones, but I shall put photos of them up some other time. Best present was from Pris though x) It was only a photo frame, but it was the photos in the frame that meant a lot to me. Second best would have to be Michael, he couldn’t come to the party cause he was in Sydney for the weekend, but he got me Krispy Kremes! (cause we don’t have it here in this state) and a shirt that says “I LOVE MICHAEL”, what a fgt x)
Then Amelia got me a book (super happy!), and I got heaps of other cutesy stuff like necklaces and bangles and earrings and shiz. And Nessa wrote me a super sweet letter, and a phone bag that I’m already using cause I like it that much <3 Anddd, what else. Oh yes, chocolate, loads of it. A teddy bear, bath stuff, really cute stuff from Amy, and moolahhh $$$!
But yes, all in all, it was a good night (:
-soph
Posted by: Dee on: July 6, 2009
Manage me I’m a mess
Turn a page, I’m a book
Half unread
I wanna be laughed at
Laughed with, just because
I wanna feel weightless
And that should be enough
Well I’m stuck in this fucking rut
Waiting on a second hand pick me up
And I’m over, getting older
If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I’m over, getting old
Maybe it’s not my weekend
But it’s gonna be my year
And I’m so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I’ve been going crazy I don’t want to waste another minute here
Make believe that I impress
That every word
By design
Turns a head
I wanna feel reckless
I wanna live it up, just because
I wanna feel weightless
Cause that would be enough
If I could just find the time
Then I would never let another day go by
I’m over, getting old
Maybe it’s not my weekend
But it’s gonna be my year
And I’m so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear
Cause I’ve been going crazy I don’t want to waste another minute here
This could be all that I’ve waited for
(Waited, I’ve waited for)
And this could be everything
I don’t wanna dream anymore
Maybe it’s not my weekend
But it’s gonnna be my year
And I’ve been going crazy
I’m stuck in here
Maybe it’s not my weekend
But it’s gonna be my year(it’s gonna be my year)
And I’m so sick of watching while the minutes pass as I go nowhere(go nowhere)
And this is my reaction
To everything I fear(everything I fear)
Cause I’ve been going crazy I don’t want to waste another minute here
AllTimeLow-Weightless.
Posted by: Soph on: July 1, 2009
yeah, its totally cool to forget my birthday, or to not care at all. Really, I’m completely cool with it. Its fine that I remember your birthday every year, or come running up to you with a card and a big hug, or call or text, or greet you online, or dedicate a blog post to you. Totally cool that I seem to be giving out a lot more care than I’m receiving, even on my birthday.
I know I’m making myself sound like a complete saint, with no faults whatsoever. But really, this is NOT cool at all!
At times like this, I wish I didn’t have any friends, then maybe it wouldn’t hurt as much, then I wouldn’t have all these expectations.
I might start blogging again, I miss it x)
Thanks everyone for their wishes (:
-soph
PS: This post was dedicated at more than one person! Several people okayyy.
PPS: Liking the new layout Dee! (Y)
Posted by: Dee on: June 30, 2009
Hey world!
Holidays has been extended due to swineflu. ): IT SUCKS!! Now I have no reason to NOT STUDY. I’ve started on Maths though! Only number series. I’ll be doing Stats later again..then maybe work on Differentiation. Gotta study Bio and Psychology as well. T___T (Oh the life of a form 6 student! D: )
I’ve been feeling a bit paranoid lately. I feel as if tons and tons of people hate me. ): Well there are signs that they do. ))):
Do you guys know that feeling? Yknow the one where you feel like giving up totally on everything and I mean EVERYTHING. Okay,that was a stupid question -_- Course everyone has felt like giving up on something …(or everything) at some point of their lives…right? Well thats how I feel right now. I feel like giving up on going on a stupid diet ( i know,everyday I just keep on gaining like 10pounds? T__T) , giving up on the internet and “staying” in touch w/ some of my friends (im online and no one is chatting to me) , giving up on socializing ( im sorry this includes having friends as well,don’t get me wrong guys, its just that theres something wrong w/ me ): ) , giving up on studying ,giving up on BOYS (OMG ESP BOYS!! -_- ) . I don’t get it yknow,why is it everytime I like someone , they don’t / won’t ever like me back. I must be a real freak aye. heh.
I should just lead a life of peace. Stay at a cottage in a farway country in the middle of the forest and eat fruits that I pick from trees everyday. Stop going to the town and eat organic food I planted in my garden. NO WAIT. I’ll stay near the beach! That’s better. I don’t know if you can have a garden using the beach sand but w/e Imma try. At least I am near the beach! The beach,where everyday I can hear the waves crashing to shore. Now that would be a dream come true. (:
It’s been a long time since I type this much aye? Oh well it’s not like anyone is going to read it. HAHA I can put the name of the guy I like over here and no one would even notice. HAHAHHAHA
I’m pretty addicted to The Kooks – Seaside now. So nice and soothing. ILIKE!
I wonder how will I turn out in 10 years time.Will I still be the same person that I am today or will I change? If so,will I change for better or for worst?
Yeah random but yknow me,when left alone….my thoughts wanders off to space.
DID I MENTIONED THAT I WATCHED TRANSFORMERS ALREADY? WELL I DID!! HAHA AND HOMAGOD IT WAS AWESOME!! HAHA
I watched it last friday w/ the PTEM People. Ajim and Faeiqah invited me : D But yeah, I had a great time watching it w/ them last friday. HEHEHE
Then then we had the peeps outing.IT WAS SO GOOD SEEING THE PEEPS AGAIN! :’) I MISS YOU GUYS LIKE HELL MAN T_____T But yeah <3 great seeing you guys again ;] HEHE
I should end here before I start ranting outing like a pathetic loser (not that I’m not one already).
dee.
Posted by: Dee on: June 28, 2009
Initially I wanted to blog about whatever disco that is going on in my head but then…if you think about it…how many people actually read this blog? So I’ll just post pictures of some people that make life worth living. (idk why the first two picture is small T__T )
So here goes…















Dear friends,
I hope you guys know how much you guys mean the world to me.
Thank you for everything you all have done for me.
Like like…accepting me for who I am. (Loud and annoying! HAHA)
And and for always being there for me especially during the times when I really really believe that no one is around when I want them to be.You guys sure proved me wrong.AND for always cheering me up! And taking care of me.
AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, FOR SPOILING ME HAHAH!
I’m serious most of my friends spoil me :bb
Love, Dee.
The tangled thoughts in my mind are a bit loose now.
like I said,I am surrounded by amazing people!
XO
p/s- JELLY AND SOPHIA, this includes you guys too!! (:
p/p/s- listen to the new BLG single- Love Drunk. It’s awesome!
Posted by: Soph on: June 26, 2009
I know I said I won’t be blogging till after the exams but I just had to blog about this
Michael Joseph Jac-kson, the man who gave the world the best break dance and the biggest selling record in human history, has been reported dead two months to his 51st birthday.
This, my friends, is the saddest news I’ve heard in a long time.
Sure Michael Jackson, the King of pop had a series of scandals that may or may not have been true, allegations of him being pedophile, rumours of molestation and him sharing a bed with young boys, etc. Okay, sure he was taken to court and everything, but with all of the negatives put aside, he still is and always will be a legend, the King of Pop, Michael Joseph Jackson.
I know I’m not a die hard fan. I mean, if I was, I would have take then first flight to LA to huddle with thousands of other fans outside the UCLA Medical Centre. But I have always been a fan of MJ, I grew up listening to MJ, my first ever concert was MJ’s.
I remember that very clearly, although I was only like 6. It was at Jerudong park, and it was free I think. There was a massive stage and dancers etc etc, like any other MJ concert, but there were scarcely any people. This was at least 10 years ago, in Brunei, so I doubt he was that well known. The audience was unenthusiastic, comprising mainly of Indo and Indian workers and amahs. My mum was heavily pregnant with my sister, but she insisted we drove all the way to Bandar (we used to live in KB then) just to watch MJ.
Then, this I vividly remember, he yelled out “I LOVE YOU BRUNEI” (I’m guessing he does this at every concert), and everyone was just like mehh, whatever. But my mum was like, “Go on, yell back.” And I shouted at the top of my lungs, “I LOVE YOU TOO”. I know, its really silly, but thats the one thing I will remember for a very very long time.
ZOMG, I gtg cause I’m blogging from school again, and the bell is gonna go in about 7 minutes. I’ll try to finish this post off at home if my mum doesn’t catch me on the computer. I’ve still got heaps to say about MJ! D:
Till later lovahs <3
-soph
Posted by: Dee on: June 16, 2009

Sometimes at this point,even your favorite can’t take you away.
i have tons to blog about.
wait for the pictures first..then I’ll blog about
1)THE CROSS COUNTRY
2)GALA NIGHT
3)RANDOM SHIZ I FOUND IN MY BLACKBERRY.
so yeah.
Drama doesn’t follow me,it rides on my back.
Sucks to be me right now.
On the brighter note – Im going out tmr.
Last hangout w Azeemshah. ):
Peeps can’t make it this thrus.
Prolly next week fer them.
So yeah.
this blog is dead.
dead dead dead dead dead.
I feel dead.
Zombie OUT.
Posted by: Soph on: June 10, 2009
Why harlow there
Exams are finally over, I sat for my last paper today. It was chemistry, and it wasn’t too bad I guess. Better than the rest of the papers I’ve sat.
Literature; I didn’t finish. First time ever I didn’t finish a lit exam. I hate myself.
Physics; Left quite a few blank, wasn’t that great. I hate myself.
Calculus; .. just whatever ay. It was so bad that don’t even have the words for it. I hate myself.
Applicable Maths; Effing shittiest exam I’ve ever sat. I hate myself the most for this.
Chemistry; not that bad, but wasn’t good. I hate myself.
But yes, photos
(I totally love my abrupt change in topics here ;D)

This is our Lit class. Yep, just ten of us. And you might be able to tell from this photo how retarded we all are 8D. But its great fun.

Us girlies (; L to R, top row first. Tamara, George, Amy, Zakia, me, Shanna, Caroline, Sahar. Bottom row L to R: Yasmin (sorry Yaz!
), Prisanne and Jess.

‘Tis our calculus class. Again, I picked a bad photo, cause Rajiv looked pretty retarded and SJ wasn’t even looking at the camera. At the very back; Liam, then second row L to R: Chris, Amelia, Me, Jenna and Jeremy. Bottom row L to R: Mike, Rajiv and SJ.

Massive group photo! Okay, back row L to R: Zach, Matt, Brandon, Georgie, Sahar, Zakia, me, Michael, Corey, Shanna, Joel, Caroline, Andre. Bottom row, L to R: Amy, Yasmin, Prisanne, Jess, Tamara and Rajiv up front.

8D

Esehhh ;D There are two other photos of me by myself that my mum made me order, but they’re too ugly to put up
So yer, those photos were like $7 each, mahallll. And they were only the size of like normal sized photos >_>
Um yes, I’ll be going on a permanent hiatus, at least until the end of yearI’m really sorry that I didn’t say anything in advance, Dee. But yeah, there are plenty of reasons behind it, but mainly the exams. I’ve really gotta pull my socks up ay, I’m doing terrible in school right now, and I can’t go on like this if I want to get any where far.
So yeah, I’m cutting myself off from msn, facebook, and just everything in general. I even planned to delete my actual msn account but there are too many contacts on there that I can’t be stuffed tracking down again later on. But if my will power isn’t enough to keep me off msn for the rest of the year, I just might delete it. Same goes for facebook.
You all have my phone number if you need to contact me, and please do contact me! Cause I won’t be allowed to go out anymore either, so I’m basically under house arrest, with just my phone as a connection to the outside world D: So yeah, do contact me (:
Dee, I’m really sorry I’m abandoning the blog like this, but I’ll be back really soon! (I promise you this, cause I doubt I’ll have enough will power anyway ;D). Take care! (L)
Bye everyoneZ <3
-soph
Posted by: Dee on: June 9, 2009
I really really, srsly have tons of things on my mind right now. I really do. But I don’t want to type it down or blog about it (…..just yet).
It’ll just sound pathetic.
but really..I hate it when I feel like this. ):
Tbh, sometimes I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk too.
Really.
I guess it’s just me.
dee-
Posted by: Dee on: June 3, 2009

Bob/Faieqah and I : D

faieqah!
(gambar – I curi from WX’s blog cause my blog no gambar wah HAHAHAHA )
the ones below here are from my phone : D
WX took this using my phone during one of the PRS counselling session.
I gotZ roses from the ossum TWITTER GENG!
During PS the other day :
Mateen got a new phone HAHA MAIN PIPE GAME TU!
WX wanted to finish his hw. so rajin! *u*
Domo is chiling w lee (Y)
RAWR.
JUST HAD TO DO IT! I hope you don’t mind soph! : D
Stolen from stephDAILY
10 things you wish you could say to 10 different people right now:
9 things people may not know about you:
8 ways to win my heart:
7 things that cross your mind a lot:
6 things you do before you fall asleep:
5 things you notice in the opposite sex:
4 things you wish you never did:
3 songs to describe your life:
2 things you want to do before you die:
1 confession:
1. I like you. (:
HAHAHAHA