Twistedcolours

 

I had a great Saturday everyone, thanks for asking

 

So, instead of saying my usual ‘more photos on facebook’, I actually uploaded all (except the completely irrelevant ones) photos on to wordpress All for your viewing pleasure. I’ve decided that I need to pay more attention to this blog, so I’m going to start treating it like facebook or something yeah?

 

Anyway! Saturday started off with Desiree’s 17th birthday party. It was great spending time with the Lit clan and a few other people again. Not my usual group, but I loved it nevertheless. The theme of the party was ‘Childhood Memories’, so we had to dress up in the most childish clothes possible.

 

Now, people who know me well would know that I have the most terrible sense of style, and my wardrobe is full of dark hues (mainly navy blue), with the odd yellow tee here and there. I don’t even like navy blue! :/ So I found it exceptionally difficult to find something childish to wear I ran around the city looking for denim overalls, but I couldn’t find any D:

 

So I ended up wearing black leggings with a flowery skirt and a bright yellow Mickey Mouse top from Jay Jays (:

 

The boys got it easy, all they had to do was wear jeans or shorts, paired with a vibrant, kiddy t-shirt D:

 

Anyway, photos!

 

With Vicky and Amy (:

 

 

 

Teh boys + Nat. So clockwsie starting from the very left is Nat, Troy, Devin, Liam then Mitch.

 

 

 

Desi! My camera goes really retarded sometimes, I don’t know why :/

 

 

With the *belated* birthday girl (:

 

 

With Vicky, and my camera goes nuts again :/

 

 

At the table. The food was KSDJHFKSDJSFNJKN yummmmmmmm.

 

 

Nat hehe (: There were like two seperate conversations going on at each end of the table XD

 

 

An unflattering photo of Vicky and Devin :/ Sorry gaiz

 

 

Chris!

 

 

This is what we were doing the entire time Desiree had two guitars to hook up to the PS3, plus the drum set kinda thing, plus a microphone. So we pretty much had our own little mini rock band. ‘Twas great fun (:

 

 

Liam, is friggin PSYCHO on the guitar. Its like he doesn’t do anything else with his time x)))

 

 

Devinnn. This is when people started to split up into two rooms, half of us were out in the main room playing guitar hero, while the other half was in the tv room, talking (:

 

 

 

Troyyy.

 

 

Devin had to sing a German song, Du Hast I think it was, by Rammstein. And its like hard core heavy metal, Slipknot kinda material. Devin actually hit all the notes ;p

 

 

8D

 

 

Devin, Troy and I got Desiree a joint present consisting of a whole bunch of Asian stuff, like a really cute bag, a Domo-kun pouch keyring kinda thing, a Hello Kitty hat, and (non asian) goodies from the Body Shop. I threw in a bag of Skittles too <> And Devin wrote her a lovely letter, so I think she really liked our gifts

 

ANYWAY, party ended at like 4, I went home, took a nap, had some family friends come around so I mingled with them for a bit. Then I started getting ready for Mel’s graduation party! (which I wasn’t invited to but showed up at anyway <>)

 

So Tam came over at around 8, and Pris came to pick us up at around 8.30. Pris’ brother drove us to Mel’s, we saw Aaron, Yaz and Londi walking there, so picked them up too. So it ended up with 5 people squeezing into the back seat hahahah.

 

There was a bit of drama when we got to Mel’s cause we weren’t invited and they didn’t want to let us in, obviously <> There was a 10$ entry fee too, so I’m like wtf. They let us in at the end, but I was fully expecting the place to PACKED but there were barely 20 people there. So I don’t understand why she was making a big fuss about it. A big waste of 10$ too, I must say, because alcohol wasn’t provided either (except maybe in the fruit punch or what-evs, but that was weak).

 

 

 

Tam and Pris (:

 

 

G and her new lip piercinggg.

 

 

 

With Tam. I really should stop making those faces, not attractive at all.

 

 

 

G and Pris butting in x) O hai baldspot :3

 

 

The party started to get a little better later on in the night I guess, as more people showed up. But they kept playing white music too, so we’re like D: Don’t get me wrong though! It was good fun, I’m glad I came (:

 

Haaa, sorry Yaz :/

 

 

Yaz and her boy Aaron (: Rajiv being creepy in the background. Oh, it was a glow in the dark party so there were glow sticks everywhere.

 

 

Yaz has super hot eyes when she puts her contacts on O:

 

 

 

This is when ‘I’m on a boat’ came on, and Blake was going crasy singing this song. Oh yeah, Mel hired this super cool digital jukebox thing, for 500$ or something like that. SUPER COOL.

 

 

 

Zach and his special face x)

 

 

 

Camera went nuts again, Blake with Zach in the background >_>

 

 

 

Londi, Pris and Tam being rude x)

 

 

 

Lol, David and Rajiv giving each other evils.

 

 

Busting a move <>

 

 

I think she was trying to get him to dance LOL

 

 

 

Oh haii massive double chin >_>

 

 

 

Michael tried to get into the photo but failed.

 

 

 

Jen and Devinn

 

 

 

Briddey!

 

 

 

Okay, this is when Tam and I tried to camwhore, but failed epicly. Feast your eyes:

 

 

Okay, thats the end of it.

 

 

Adam is the funniest drunk ever! He walks in, and 15 minutes later he’s going crasy on the dance floor, super funny.

 

 

 

A bit random, but look at how awesome my skin looks in this photo. Make up + camera flash can really do wonders for my skin =’)

 

 

Wongyy

 

 

Hahah, check out the state Adam’s in XD

 

 

 

Zach and Matttt.

 

 

 

Jordan! Is so freakin tall :/

 

 

 

That face of mine, needs to be destroyed :/

 

Bit random again, but check out my lashes =’) And Pris is totally busting a move here =D

 

 

 

 

Yaz looking very disgruntled here x))

 

 

 

Yaz ruined it D<

 

 

 

By teh pool.

 

dkfjnkjdfn my face! L to R, Briddey, myself, Londi, Georgie, Tam and Jen in the back XD

 

 

 

And again! Thats Jenna btw (: She was pretty off her rocker too.

 

 

 

BUT! The real fun only started when we moved on to David’s house. I had to get my brother and his friend to come pick the TEN of us up from Mel’s house at around 11. So thats ten of us, plus two drivers, in two cars. So we all had to squeeze, again x))

David’s mum is awesome, she even set out shot glasses and stuff for us.

 

 

Starting to go a bit crasy there. But apparently I was the only one that was really drunk, everyone else was just fine, so I’m like :/

 

 

 

Brandon and Mark. Mark was very very nice and caring by the way, looks like he’s got experience with being really off his face so he was making sure I was okay (Y).

 

 

 

Haaa, double chin :/

 

 

 

THIS BOY, was getting drunk eight hours before his flight to Singapore. He has to go back to National Service right, so he wanted to have some fun before he left. So this was at around 12+ that night, his flight was at 9 the next morning hahaha x))

 

 

 

David has a chicken.

 

 

 

I think he was choking on something  *shrugs*

 

 

 

After about 4 shots I was starting to have difficulty keeping my eyes open ay. I don’t know why.

 

 

 

Saturday night was the first time I had hard liquor. I had one mixed drink, and the rest was vodka shots. And bits of midori? Fark, I dno. But it seriously tastes the way fuel smells, and its soo hard to keep it down, felt like I was gonna throw up everytime I downed a shot, burns the insides too. Its absolutely disgusting to be honest, but I wanted more <> Tamara wouldn’t let me though. I also tried a cigarette for the first time that night, but I didn’t feel anything cause apparently I wasn’t inhaling it right.

 

Tam is a great friend though, she wouldn’t let me try the cig, I actually had to get it off one of the boys. She was also trying to control my drinking but I wouldn’t listen <> Pris was there for about an hour too, then she had to go home early. Didn’t spend much time with her though.

 

Smexy XD

 

 

 

Friggin scared the shit out of me the first time I saw it.

 

 

 

Bad camera D:

 

 

Tam and Wong.

 

 

Hahah, best photo of the night (Y)

 

 

We were toasting to everything and anything x)

 

 

 

Bad timer shots:

Look at how attractive my face is here.

 

 

David took this:

And this was the last photo of the night.

 

 

Things just got worse after that. I lost count of how many shots I took (was less than 10 though), then David’s mum told us off for being too loud, so we went to the nearby park, and I couldn’t walk straight anymore so I laid down in the wet grass :/ Then Andre and Brandon showed up, and I ended up embarrassing myself even more.

 

So yeah, thats the end of it lulz.

 

-soph

 

 

Went to the city the other day with Devin and Troy to shop for Desiree’s birthday presents and just to chill I guess. It was a good day, I must say. I’ll let the photos do the talking (plenty more on facebook).

 

 

Hahah, ily devin. He looks so much like his mum in this photo that its not funny.

 

 

 

Timer shots ftw. At the imperial courts garden or something like thattt.

Troyyy

 

 

 

At timezonee.

 

 

 

 

I forgot who won, wasn’t really paying attention, was just taking photos <> Oh we took neos too! But I’ll scan them up some other time.

 

 

 

 

At the bus stopp. I like this photo cause my teeth look awesomely white :D:D:D:D

 

 

It was a good day, I must say. It was great just chilling with them two. Made Troy try bubble tea, he didn’t like the sweet chewy balls as much as I do (*cough* inside joke). And we got awesome presents for Desiree (she nearly cried. will blog about Desi’s party in the next post. Oh, and you know how I was going to have a really angry blog post kinda thing? Well the anger is gone now, so no angry blog post )

 

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Graduation!

 

Last night as a CVC student. I didn’t cry, although a lot of other people did. Its not that I didn’t feel any sadness or remorse, the feeling just wasn’t as intense as I thought it would be.

 

It was a bad night for me; got into a fight with mum like 10 minutes before we left home to go the graduation. She thought the back of my dress was too revealing, so she went psycho. And my mum, is a complete retard ay. Even though it was the dress she was dissatisfied with, she went onnn and onnn, and was accusing me of having my hair down on the day we bought the dress, which is why she didn’t see how revealing the back is. BULLSHIT, I had my hair up that day! And that doesn’t have anything to do with it anyway! Graduation started at 6pm, and at 5.55pm, my mum was going off her head about something completely irrelevant. Fuck that shit, I wanna move out asap ay.

 

Then the graduation dragged ONNNN. FARK. LIke 4 hours long. So many unnecessary speeches and awards. Then my brother tells me that he’s disappointed that I won only one award. Then the year book is fucking bullshit too :/ 42$ my ass, so not worth my money.

 

Anyway, yeah, photos. I’m not putting all the photos up, just random ones here and there, and not necessarily with the people I’m closest to (:

 

 

Pris and Devin giving their head boy and head boy speeches =’) So proud of them.

 

 

Liammm.

 

 

 

Mikeee.

 

 

 

This is like half our group here. At the very back L to R theres Blake, Mike and Brandon. Then middle row L to R is Tamara, Matt, Pris and Zach. Then its Zakia and me

 

 

 

The girlss L to R: me, Zakia, Geo, Tam, Yaz then Jess up front x)

 

 

 

Michael, Sahar and Jess amongst the other graduates =’)

 

 

Friggin Andre was making faces at every photo I tried to take with him. Got a good one in the end though

 

 

 

Tam and myself (:

 

 

 

There are more photos, like of me and my parents and stuff. But they’re on the computer and I cbf. And we all looked disgruntled and shiz in the photos cause of the fight I got into with my mum HEHEHEH.

 

Gosh, I’ve turned into a terrible blogger :/

 

More stuff coming up

-soph

Just a bunch of random photos guys, in no particular order (: Will do proper little dedications and shiz next time, cause frankly, I’m not in the mood. Shall type up a rly angry blog post later too.

Troy and Devin, coolest kids around. <3

I was being a tard in applic

Zakia and Prisanne (:

Hahah, love this photo. Was mucking around like crasy at lunch. Zakia and Yasmin.

Amelia did my hair super nicely in applic. Last ever applic session I think it was ):

Chem class, one of my favourite classes. Back row L to R: Steph, Jennay, Jordan, Brandon, Lisa, Mr. Naidu, Matt, Harvinder. Front from L to R: Liam, me, Jenna and Aaron.

Lit class, wackiest class ever. L to R: Natalie, Desiree, Vicky, Troy, me, Liam, Emma, Amy, Devin, and Ms. Ernst (supreme evil ruler of the universe) up front (:

Calc, awesome awesome class! Gonna miss it heaps, L to R: Mitch, Liam, Amelia, Rajiv, Jenna, SJ, Chris, Mr. Scata, Jeremy, Mike and myself.

Best. advocate group. EVER. Back row L to R: Mr. Frost, Scott, Kate, Wandri, myself, Jess, Shane, Mark. Middle row, L to R: Zach, Vicky, Sahar, Londi, Hend, and Josh up front.

Mucking around in applic with the girlies (: Jess, Tamara and Zakia.

Our little group,I was actually going write a little about everyone, about how much I love and appreciate them, etc. But I’m in no such mood at the moment. I know this is totally interrupting the initially nice and happy blog post, to do with sweet sweet high school memories etc, but I don’t know. I’ve been overcome by this sudden wave of anger and frustration, and I have no idea what triggered it.

*will elaborate in next post.*

Sahar dearest, gonna miss her heaps (if we don’t keep in touch. I hope we do DD: ). And Yasmin

Michael the fag, we used to be way closer but not so much anymore. Its cool though And Jess, we used to be way closer too, when we were neighbours =’) Good times.

Andre! My *cough* brother. Gonna miss this fag plenty too. And Brandonn, chem buddy. I think we were closer this year than any other year. Not sure if it’ll stay that way, but its been good. (JEEZ, I’M SUCH AN OPTIMIST AREN’T I? *sarcasm*)

These two fags going off to Singapore for two whole years!! Doubt things will ever be the same after, but theres been plenty of good (and bad) memories I guess Matt and Rajiv, btw.

Sj buddy! And Tamara (DON’T KNOW WHY I DONT HAVE A RECENT PHOTO OF US!). Only got to know these two better this year, but its been good

So yeah, everyone is lovely

Ha, you can so tell I’m not in an affectionate mood at the moment.

Another post coming up shortly hahah, had to get this out of the way, eventhough it was written very badly, and half heartedly.

-soph

We’re all growing up aren’t we? We just don’t notice it. Its funny, looking back at the last couple of years, just looking at how everyone’s changed. How I’ve changed too. Its inevitable, and I’m not sure if I like it very much.

I don’t know whats wrong with me, I always seem to be dissatisfied with something :/

Going shopping with mum tomorrow, its not going to be pleasant. Doesn’t look like I’ll be going to that party tomorrow night either. Monday and Tuesday is definitely happening though (I hope), then graduation on Wednesday.

I don’t know what to wear to graduation. I was thinking of getting a nice semi formal blouse kinda thing, with a black high waisted skirt? But my ever supportive mum doesn’t think a high waisted skirt would suit me, shes probably right though. I want to get another pair of heels too, strappy ones with a skinny heel? But my mum is so GAY. Guh!

Also, I’m sorting out photos to upload and blog about, so all of that will be coming up soon I hope, next week sounds pretty packed, but I’ll find time, I’m sure.

Till then
-soph

So I’m FINALLY FINALLY done with high school (officially), like a year later than everyone else back in Brunei finished. I’d say exams went terribly, I’m not joking. I really should have studied more, but I found it incredibly difficult to study, especially for the last two exams because I was soooo close to the end. I couldn’t help but think ahead and plan things, in my head.

But now that exams really are done, I’m sitting here listening to old music and ripping my hair out with boredom. I’ve grown so accustomed to studying and doing homework that I don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

Before exams started, I made a list (again, in my head) of all the things I wanted to do after exams, all the tv shows I wanted to catch up on and movies I wanted to watch. I wanted to learn to drive, right away, I want to read all the books that I bought from my trip to Malaysia last year (LAST YEAR!), I want to lose a lot of weight, I want to give myself a make over; get new clothes, shoes, hair-do, I want to be more womanly, I want to turn over a new leaf, start fresh for uni. I keep telling myself, I’m an adult now, I’m done with high school. I’m my own responsibility now.

So I told myself, okay, if I want to take care of myself now, I’m going to need money (as you do if you want to do ANYTHING at all in this country, or anywhere else for that matter). And to get money, I need a job. So I hopped on Mozilla Firefox, and on to seek.com. with every intention of finding good paying job to occupy myself over the Christmas holidays and perhaps until uni starts (thats if I do get into uni >_> with the way the exams went, I somehow doubt that).

BUT ZOMGOSIKHDSFKHNFKJ. I can’t even write up a proper resume. I’m useless outside the academic world, and I FUCKING HATE THAT. Ok, lets see, resume; experiences: nil, academic achievements: (not trying to be cocky at all, because trust me, its not that great. Plus, these ‘achievements’ stopped short after the start of year 12) can go on for about a page. Ok sure, that sounds great an everything, but how exactly is that going to help me get a job?

I hate the fact that I’m so INEXPERIENCED. I know I’ve blogged about this a couple of times before, but I cannot stress enough my frustration at being nothing but a speck of.. of.. nothingness in the wide wide world that lies outside school. And now that I’m done with school (not officially because the graduation ceremony is only on the 18th ), I can’t help but SHIT MYSELF at the prospect of stepping outside my comfort and zone and gaining a little independence.

I mean, its not that I don’t want this independence, you have no idea how much I crave it. I detest my parents, and how they don’t trust me. I mean yes, I want to party, I want to get drunk, I want to hook up with someone at a party, I want to perhaps experiment with substances? I don’t know, it all comes down to that word again: experience. I actually do feel regret at not having ‘done’ enough throughout high school. But yes, my point (gosh, getting carried away) is that I want to go out and try new things, I want to be rebellious for once.

But even this I am afraid to do, I’m afraid to be rebellious, because there is that possibily of losing all control. I’m a worrier, paranoia is my best friend.

I don’t really know where I’m getting at with this LOL. Just needed to get that off my chest I suppose.

I got into an argument with my mum today. She offered to ask around in Freo for any job openings, and I shut her down, I was like NOOOO! I mean, would you employ someone who’s MOTHER came and asked “Oh hi, can my daughter work here? 8)” So yeah, and she got pissed off because I was ‘being unappreciative”.

Gosh, I want to move out so badly that its not funny. But I know I can’t survive on my own.

THIS IS FUCKING SHIT. I’ve got nothing to do tomorrow. I’m going to spend all day at home, probably clean around for a bit. And maybe read a book. Fark, great way to celebrate end of the biggest exam I’ve ever sat in my life.

On a lighter note NEW MOON IS OUT SOOOON. And no, I haven’t booked tickets So I’ll probably be able to watch it only about a week or two after its released because the cinemas would be jam packed for days on end.

UMMMMMMMMMMMM. I’ll upload photos soon (: Its just that my brother took the other computer with him, and I probably won’t be getting it back anytime soon. And this computer (my dad’s) is pretty gay, none of my photos are on here, neither is sims 2 (((((((((((((((((((((((((((

Sigh. I want to be

Wow, I actually don’t know. I was going to whine and whinge about how I’m not this or not that (like I have done so numerous times in the post so far). But I actually stopped typing after ‘be’. I need to shut the fuck up and appreciate what I have.

WTF IS WRONG WITH ME. Why aren’t I happy with the life I have now? Why do I always want more? I mean, I’m educated, I have food to eat, a roof over my head, clothes on my back, a whole and loving family, the best mates I could ever ask for. I need to shut up and enjoy life

End of exams, end of high school, beginning of adulthood and hopefully independence. Lets make the next 10+ years of my life good yeah?

-soph

So I got myself a new camera, so you guys should be expecting plenty of photos in the upcoming months!

HOWEVER, I just finished my mocks, and my REAL exams are in approximately 18 days. That is why I am not going to have a full on proper blog post although there has a been a few things going on, and there will be a few things coming up over the next couple of weeks (RIVER CRUISE! AND GRADUATION ASSEMBLY! AND LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL PRETTY MUCH, so there will be plentyyy of camwhoring).

So heres just a couple of start off. More will come after exams, or after river cruise? Maybe, depends

One of my most favourite people ever (:

At maccasss.

Nessa’s friends LOL. KTV for Nessa and Steph’s birthday (:

Just like old times hey? Sorry you got cut out Devin ><

Also one of my most favourite people ever.

Thats all for now I guess >< Sorry I’ve totally abandoned this blog. I’ll be back soon! Promise.

-soph